Baby Has Two Moms

Still Around

In a kind of weird holding pattern. I broke down and ordered materials from a private adoption agency just so that I can look at our options. Ok, I admit I was giving up. Two says that adoption is great and that we should adopt, but that she doesn’t want me to quit just yet. It hasn’t even been a year yet. We did agree that we wouldn’t worry until we had hit the one year mark and we are still 3 or so months away from that. It’s just that I am getting older and am not quite sure how to proceed. I don’t do failure well. We saw a therapist at the beginning of our journey and she warned us that people who fall in my demographic (professionally and educationally) really don’t deal too well with infertility because we are used to succeeding. I dismissed her as being a nutcase…until now. Maybe she was right. I really haven’t ever failed at much and have gotten just about everything that I have worked for. This is a new thing for me. Not only am I not successful, but I am beginning to really hate those who are. I need to just move past this and move on, either to more attempts or adoption.

Just my rant for the day.


March 26, 2007 - Posted by | On the mommy track?


  1. just checking in. is private adoption expensive?

    Comment by jerseytjej | April 1, 2007 | Reply

  2. This particular agency is about $30,000.

    Comment by oneoftwo | April 1, 2007 | Reply

  3. We gave ourselves 2 years. It worked after a year and a half. I completely understand how you feel. One of the problems with us too is that we thought that there was a rationale explanation and that everything should come together logically.
    If we had sperm that was good, our timing was great, we knew Lois could get pregnant (she did on the first try that ended in miscarriage) and the sperm was being injected directly into the uterus – HOW COULD THIS NOT WORK!!!?!?!?!?
    Hang in there – I hope you don’t give up yet!

    Comment by hollykr1976 | April 12, 2007 | Reply

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