Another Fucking Birthday
Today is my birthday. Another birthday without a baby and without being pregnant. Whoopdee fucking doo!
On the adoption front we have been talking with DFC about starting the training that is required by our state. We would have to go out of the county to do an adoption because they only do special needs adoptions in our county and we really want an infant. As for the mom-to-be that we talked about last time…she found out that at least one of the babies is a girl and even though she knows that she can’t care for the children that she already has, that the father doesn’t want the children, and that the children would be better off elsewhere, she wants to keep them.
Call it bitterness, but how can anyone be so selfish? I know that I can’t begrudge a mother her own biological children but IF makes me think like that. Oh well, I’ll get over it, right?
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Ugh! I agree with you.
I’m sorry your journey hasn’t led (yet) to where you planned. Keep on keepin on. Each part of the process (whichever route you ulitmately take) is it’s own journey and has it’s own pitfalls and rewards. I hope you get everything that you and two desire.
Karen B.
I’ve been lurking for quite some time… Anyway just wanted to say I totally understand how you feel and am hoping you guys get some good ttc or adoption luck.
Here, Here! Ditto! I get it. But I’m sorry you’re dealing with the bitterness – I think it’s the worst of all the roller coaster emotions that TTC brings.
It’s been impossible for me to remain thrilled for the average accidental pregnancy – I can try but usually I give in pretty quickly.
i can totally see why you’d feel that way. i seem to find something to be bitter about during this process almost every day. But, when it’s something directly standing in the way of what you want, it’s even worse.
i’m sorry that it’s working out this way. There’s always the possibility that things will change though–good luck to you.
Oh yea, and happy birthday, even if it doesn’t seem too happy.