Strangely Calm

I find that I am strangely calm this month as we are not actively TTC. I have been temping and watching for signs of ovulation and just been enjoying the process as a whole. I am currently on CD20 and about 8 days out from a double dosage of the Femara.

Oh well, I guess the fun has to end sometime, right?

Sick of Waiting and Ready to Go!

I am so ready for the next try, but Dr. McDreamy wanted us to sit out this month. It is driving me nuts! While AF has been hanging around for about 7 days in some form or another and the cramps were HORRIBLE for the first couple of days it wasn’t really much heavier than it normally is.

Dr. McD called last night and said he’s not ready to go to injectables yet, but that he wants to double my Femara dosage next month and then try again. He’s thinking that there’s nothing wrong that it’s just “averages” at this point. He was sweet and sympathetic. I think that I lucked out with this guy! So if I’m counting right we’re about 3 weeks away from meds now.

I am sending positive baby vibes to ya’ll in the midst of the TWW.

Still Here!

Full flow started almost immediately after I came off of the Prometrium. It hasn’t been as heavy as I worried that it would have been, but the cramps the first couple of days were unbelievable! The only thing that I wanted to do (and did) was curl up on the couch and sleep. It’s a damn good thing that school doesn’t start back until next week.

I have been kind of lax in temping this month. I gotta get back to it. It’s probably because I know that we are on hold this month and that I won’t know what our new course will be until I talk to Dr. McDreamy’s office next week.

I asked this question over at the forums last week, but I’ll ask here too since there are different folks around these parts. How do you feel about decorating a nursery while TTC? Two is anxious to get started and I am/was worried about how I would feel looking at the nursery if I got a BFN. After getting our BFN I am actually feeling more determined (I am a traditional over achiever and I hate the thought of failing at anything and I see this as more of a challenge than ever). I am feeling more like I want to go along with Two and start working on the nursery. Maybe it’s more of a question of the power of positive thinking!

The Blood Test Makes It Official

The waiting game is over, I am NOT pregnant. Nurse Nicey called while Two and I were making dinner. She apologized (like it was her fault), asked if I was okay, and then made a joke about throwing the knife at the phone once she hung up. She also said that we’ll see what Dr. McDreamy wants to do next, but he likes to wait a month between tries especially when there’s a change. And then she said the dreaded word…”injections”. She wanted to know if we were open to the idea. She said that Dr. McDreamy would be calling next week with a new plan (perhaps).

On a more positive note, I do get to stop taking the Prometrium and wait for AF to come. Next time I know not to temp if they put me back on the post-IUI Prometrium because my BBT never dropped below 98.3-ish while it is usually in the low 97s before O and AF.

As My Granny Always Says..

I shoulda followed my first mind. I did test early and got a BFN. That being said AF still has not come and after a little temperature dip it’s on the way back up (thanks for noticing Brooke I was trying not to get too optimistic). I am scheduled for a blood test on Monday and I am still cautiously hopeful!

When to Test?

Brooke asked a good question, when will I test? Well my first IUI was two weeks ago today and my second happened the next day. Dr. McDreamy’s office has scheduled a HcG test for me NEXT Monday, but I think that I may break out the HPT and POAS tomorrow because turning a two week wait into a three week wait is just brutal!

On another note, it is almost pleasant not to test. The longer I wait to test the longer the possibility remains that I may actually be pregnant. *sigh*

Less Blue??

I have to say that my breasts are not as painful today as they have been. No more waking me up in the middle of the night, but still sore and swollen. Feeling pretty bloated still, but a little less weepy (as long as Two doesn’t mention it)

For the last 3 days of so I have been running a bit hot. Not basal temp hot (that’s about 98.3-4), but regular old temperature hot. My temperature has been running about 99.5. I know that we are in the middle of a heat wave, but it’s 72 degrees in my house (yes, I do like it cold). Two keeps complaining about me being too hot when I try to cuddle. What the hell is up with that? I haven’t seen anything about this being a side effect of Prometrium and I don’t feel sick. Anyone else have this symptom on Prometrium?

BTW Still waiting on doing the HPT.

Prometrium Blues

I have now been on Prometrium for 6 days (200mg bid vaginally) and I have to say that I am not too fond of it. My breasts have gone up a full cup size and they hurt like HELL!! I rolled over onto my stomach in my sleep 2 nights ago and woke myself up with the pain. I am feeling weepy a lot of the time. I keep asking myself if it’s worth it…for a healthy pregnancy? Hell yes! Sunday it will be two weeks from the first insemination date, but the blood test is still scheduled for the 14th. *sigh*

Do I test before or do I not? I know that the early tests are only about 60% accurate. I just worry about what kind of havoc a (possibly) false negative is going to wreck on my psyche. Two keeps asking me if I’ll be okay if it’s negative. I tell her yes, and I will be. I’m going to be really disappointed, but in the end I will be okay and then I’ll just get ready to try again. That being said, I won’t have to try again because this time was gold…I just know it.