Don’t Want No More of The Waiting Game

(sung to the tune of “The Crying Game”)

Still waiting. Temperatures continued to go up in the dpo and have leveled off in the last 2 readings. I went out and bought a box of the early detection HP tests yesterday, but I was disappointed to see that if you do take it 5 days before your missed period it is only like 60% accurate. Why would I want to do that to myself? Will I be able to not do that to myself?

Nurse Nicey faxed an order for a blood test on Day 35 up to Dr. Smalltown’s office this week and that means that I have to wait until August 14th!!! I am still on the vaginal prometrium which, if it works like it should orally, will probably keep my period away until I stop taking it any way.

So, for now I’ll continue with “The Waiting Game” and let a’ll know of any future developments

Oh the Humanity!

The wait is killing me and we are only two days in. I’m not supposed to have a blood test until day 32 or 35 and it’s only day 15. Geez!

I picked up this month’s supply of Prometrium so that I’ll be ready come Friday morning.

We Got to Sleep in Today

We got to sleep in today because we didn’t have to be at the lab until 1:00. We had our 2nd IUI today and now we begin the TWW! I start vaginal progesterone supplements on Friday and if I get a BFP at the end of the TWW Dr. McDreamy wants me to stay on the supplement until we are 12 weeks in.

I am thinking positive pregnancy thoughts and all of the positive vibes are deeply appreciated!!!

I Needed a Second Opinion This Morning

I woke up at 5:45 and peed on a stick this morning. The OPK indicated that I had my LH surge, but I peed on a second stick just to be sure. They were both positive so we drove to Dr. McDreamy’s office. We picked up our swimmers at the lab, two carried the vial in her bra to keep it warm and we waited a few minutes for Nurse Nicey (she really is super nice) to come and get us.

The IUI went off pretty much without a hitch and two and I sang show tunes while  I laid there for another 10 minutes or so. Two drove us home (me with the seat all of the way back) and I’ve been home with my feet up thinking pregnant thoughts all day. We go back for a second IUI tomorrow and then start vaginal progesterone as a luteal phase supplement on Friday.

More of an update later!

Green Means Go, Pink Means Stop

So I got up at 5:45 this morning to pee on a stick and get ready for the drive to Dr. McDreamy’s office. Guess what? The 2 lines on the stick weren’t the same color and according to the directions the test line has to be the same color as or darker than the color line. Feeling kinda anxious, I woke two up and asked her what she thought. She was pretty sure that I was crazy and that waiting another day wouldn’t be so bad.

On the bright side I got to sleep until 7:45 before I had to call the office and cancel today’s appointment. The nurse said that she’ll hopefully see me tomorrow and if not she’ll schedule me tentatively for Monday and Tuesday. Geez! It’s CD 13, can we get a damned line already?!?!?

Waiting on a call back

I put in a call to Dr. McDreamy’s office to schedule my weekend appointments. Still no LH surge according to the OPK, but I know my body well. The cramps that I get a few days before ovulation started yesterday and today I had the infamous cervical mucous change. According to these things I should be fertile and the swimmers should be at the lab waiting for their journey.

Hurry up and call back would you??

Two and I went out for sushi last night since I’ll no longer be able to eat all of that wonderful raw fish after we conceive (it’s the power of positive thinking). I’ll update when I get a call back from Dr. McDreamy’s office!

T minus 1 and counting

We have swimmers ordered and they should be at the doctor’s office tomorrow (before 10:30). I started ovulation testing this morning and I’m pretty sure that the line was a little lighter than the control line.

The nurse at Dr. McDreamy’s office told me to schedule tentative appointments for Saturday and Sunday to be sure that I can get in just in case I need to come in. We’re doing back to back inseminations. twoofteo and I have decided to have sushi one last time because I can’t have it after conception (ah, the power of positive thinking). I may even have a drink or two!

We aren’t giving people blow by blows but our family does know that we are working on it. two and I have decided that we won’t disclose any information about the donor and that we’ll tell everyone that we are using IVF all of the time and that we are implanting embryos from both of us simultaneously so that we don’t even know which is which genetically. We don’t think that our families will treat the children any differently, but we want to be sure to dispel all possibilities. two and I actually look enough alike that it’ll be pretty damned hard to tell At the recommendation of the fertility counselor, we’ve also consulted our blood type charts in order to make it that much more difficult to discern genetic connections. It feels really cloak and dagger right about now.

I think that the lady at NECC is sick of me right now. I wanted to be sure that the swimmers were sent out in a timely fashion since we are on such a tight schedule (two and I needed a little pressure to choose between the final two contestants). It didn’t help that McDreamy’s office was a little slow sending in the form that NECC needed. I did call NECC as soon as they opened this morning and was greated with “Good morning, oneofone. You are all taken care of!” I’m just hoping that she is used to stressed out, control freak lesbians who are trying to conceive

Right now there’s nothing left to do except wait to pee on another stick tomorrow and hope for safe travels for the swimmers.

Hey j: thanks for the advice on the long speculum I will be SURE to pass that one along since we are up for IUI this time around!

H-day Update

Let me start by telling you that I had the HSG done in Small Town. As I have said before (I think), our health insurance doesn’t cover fertility treatments so the financial burden of our journey is coming out of pocket. We fully expected to pay for all secondary testing and insemination/implantation services ourselves. No, we are not inndependently wealthy, but we are older and have been preparing for a bit.

Last week Dr. McDreamy’s billing office called to tell us that they wouldn’t even know how much to charge for an HSG because they had never seen an insurance company refuse to cover it before. They told us to call Dr. Smalltown because they should cover it if he did it. Worth a shot, right? To make a long story short they would, so we did.

Today I went for the HSG. I have a tilted uterus/cervix, anyone who has ever done my Pap Smear knows it, but for some reason it took Dr. Smalltown far too long of poking proding and using a hook type implement to tilt my uterus/cervix to get the catheter in place and the dye going. It was some of the worst pain that I have ever felt. And this is from someone who has had serious menstrual pain on Provera.

After it was all over Dr. Smalltown asked if I was excited. I told him that I was until the procedure and he goes “Well, I hate to tell you this, but the insemination might be the same because of the angle of your cervix”. I wanted to smack his smug little face and tell him I doubt that this would be the case because Dr. McDreamy actually seems to know what he is doing, but I was in too much fucking pain.

The cramps have lessened, but I’m still pissed. I’m wishing that I had just paid for the damn procedure and gone to see Dr. McDreamy!

H-day

Aspirin and antibiotics taken. On my way to the HSG appointment. Update later.

Where to Start?

It’s been a long week. My period finally started yesterday, but according to Dr. McDreamy’s office today is actually CD1.

I say finally because my period was 3 days late. We had a health scare last week. Not to go into too much detail, but twooftwo has a degenerative thing that will necessitate her having a transplant one day. She’s known for almost 15 years. We accept it, but when someone tells you that it might be closer it’s a fucking kick in the gut.

Stupid specialist #1 (a new doc to us) scared us shitless, because he doesn’t have enough experience to know his ass from a hole in the ground, after he read her results for the first time. He sent us to a surgical specialist 24 heart wrenching hours later who said the stupid specialist #1 over reacted, but that because she is a bit of an anomoly to them (being so young and all) he’d like to send us back to the big city to see a transplant specialist who can tell us how close we are and what we need to be doing differently, if anything. The specialist that we had been seeing (who was damned good and very experienced with conditions like hers) left a few months ago and we ended up with SS#1. We’re waiting for a call from the big city doctor’s office to know when we go for a battery of tests.

I have been struggling a lot with what to do about the conception process. Is it selfish to keep trying while we’re waiting to learn more or is it just optimistic to keep going to help us fulfill our dream of growing our family? Need to make some decision soon, meds start tomorrow.

Shit, I need chocolate and a hug!